Rants

More like a confusion..
I think you’ve hurt me more than anyone I can think of. But I still come crawling back on my knees. Look at me now. It’s almost 2 years and I’m getting nothing.

I wish time was on our side. I never thought I would be here. I can’t believe I got this low, just too low. When you like act like this, I despise you. I bet you already know that. The best thing that happened to me is slowly fading away. I still honestly don’t know what to think about this situation anymore. I’m on the boarder of falling off a cliff and giving up just to get this off my chest. It’s just to personal now. I wish everything was what they use to be.
But I guess I’m slowly fading not knowing whats the differences between dreams and reality anymore.

You are a bitch. You complain shit I don’t want to be involve with. I don’t give a flying fuck if “he” is flirting with you. And when you say “nah. I can’t really say” then spill your whore of a mouth.
I don’t care if he talks to you, he is on my “I don’t give a shit about” list. He used me. He is a manwhore. He even calls him that. You have 4 guys all over you.
Leave me alone.

Why is everyone obsessing with Valentines Day?
It’s just a day. Honestly, you can do whatever you plan to do on valentines and do it every day for years and years. They shouldn’t have a day decided to love. Showing how much you love a person should be every day as long as you guys are still together, but every year on Feb, 14th.
Even though I never had someone to spend my valentines with or ever had been with anyone on valentines I kinda think it’s stupid..
Yeah, I might be jealous of seeing every couple around me showing their affection to each other and in public. I just wish guys were different… There’s not a lot of guys here who are actually like that.. They’re always out of town or out of the state… Im just lame…

Yay, that wasn’t a surprise isn’t it? You’re pulling the same bullshit on me again aren’t you. -_____-
I’m sick and tired of it. Do one thing or the other. Take it or leave it. I’ll find a way to get myself out of this rut and hole you created for me.

Is it me or are we going down hill? I’m kinda sadden about it, like, oh… ok.. I see how it is. Yes, completely flirt with me saying all of these crap here and there. Then later on do something else. Sir, that is what I like to call lending on and using someone.. I hate that, honestly, I don’t act like this with ANYONE, you were the only exception for that. Well, hey, what the hell, I guess I’ll be on the down low and keep it to myself. You frustrate me a lot. You can’t make up your mind. It’s either do the one or the other (pick your choice). Yeah, I’m sick and tired of being alone, it hurts me a lot. But this is kinda making it worst too…. Well apparently I have more stress on my chest now.

I just can’t get myself out of this rut apparently. I’m a mess, I’m a loser, I always get myself in the most horrible situations ever. I pretty much hate my life. Said and done.