Rants

Dude fuck off.
She’s 13 and you’re 17.
You’re on the other side of the world and you’re fucking around with her saying shit like I love you and OMG you’re hot.
Don’t be a pedo dude.
Honestly if she was my little sister I would honestly fuck you up if I was in the UK. That’s not right to hit on a girl you never met or even you never talked to and be attached to her within an hour sending you shit on her inbox. She’s still new to this tumblr thing.
You are one dumb fuck.
Go be a pedo to another 13 year old.
Just fuck off.
You disgust me.

STFU and watch the movie. You weren’t here for the beginning why ask all the questions now. And dude… You talk to much during the movie. It’s annoying. I’m trying to watch.

So, I’m driving perfectly at night with my mom to somewhere I have never driven before. Then she decides to yell at me (who said she’s speaking normally *I fuckin call bullshit*), AND tells me to pull over and she’ll drive cause she got us lost. I google mapped where we were. Nope selfish bitch ignores me and goes wherever the hell she wanted to go. Gets to a dead end. I wanted to just jump out car and walk the fuck back home.
Mark my words, if she asks me to drive tomorrow for lunch, FUCK THAT SHIT! I’m not doing shit anymore.
I should of crashed the car into a tree or something.

I argue cause you don’t listen. I talk about cause you don’t understand. If you see me with a lot of stuff in my hand I can’t just drop everything and do the fuck you want me to do. So, STFU, let me do my things first. And CALM YOU’RE FUCKING TITS DOWN! Seriously I’m down. I had enough, thats why I talk back and argue.

What up with you and always being pissy before we go somewhere like a gathering or something? Like seriously, calm your fucking tits down. Just kick it down a bit. Btw, when I’m driving and your correcting me on the littlest things doesn’t mean you can make yourself sound pissed off every time you do that. I honestly lose all confidences every time you do that. You don’t do that to Broseph when he drives, nope you’re proud of him. But when I road rage you’re fine? You’re pretty fucked up. I’m a good driver. I would rather drive you around instead of dad cause he’ll go “OH MY GOD! Slow down! You’re going over the speed limit! (by a mile or two)” “Watch out! There’s someone trying to cross!” “don’t slam the brakes too hard! (I do that to make him STFU).” you gotta admit I’m a better driver than dad is…

You, you’re turning 6, and you don’t know how to take NO as an answer. Even though you’re related to me by blood. I don’t give a shit. You’re just annoying as hell. Like seriously, someone kill me right now. I’m ready to end my life.

You’re voice is incredible
You’re gorgeous
You’re hair is absolutely amazing
I wish I was like you every time I listen to your songs..
Low self esteem much, I think yes.

Honestly, I hardly talked to you. I know you’re a family friend. Buuuttt, piss off. I’m not gonna take your advice on how to run my own future and my path.
Please and thank you.
(PS. You don’t need to know about my past fucking relationships. And quit asking if I am in a relationship or have a boyfriend. It’s complicated. FUCK!)

If you have something to tell me, just tell me..
Even though it’ll infect me a lot..
At least I’ll know I’m not getting lied to or having a secret kept from…
So what I just found out might be the most horrible thing.. That’s how you can break someones heart in million of piece than it was before you broke it.
Planned to come visit more often since finals are going to be done. Maybe spend the next 2-3 weeks there. But since you’re keeping secrets from me. I might just say fuck it…
To be honest… Ever since you told me a few weeks ago, maybe a month ago, that “I was worth it” kinda makes me rethink if you meant it cause I meant it a lot.
Now, I’m in bed sick to my stomach, with you hiding something from me, crying by listening to songs that remind me of you. I might just say fuck it… I’m going to be forever alone after thinking this guy maybe worth it after all. I know I might not come visit… I don’t have the money. I wish there was a money tree though.. Do you know why? I would take all of that money from that tree and spend it to gas or a plane ticket just to see you. Only if it’s only a few hour trip. I would still do it….

Being sick
**Pros:**
•being able to sleep in as long as you want.
•have someone to make you warm and yummy soup for you in bed.
•get to goof around in your own room either watching tv or playing video games with friends online.
•wearing a oversize shirt with sweats.
•having people to wish you better.
•having company at home.
•having someone there next to you and help achieve your every day needs without even getting up.

**Cons:**
•missing classes
•getting bored easily
•having to take horrible and deedful liquid medicine
•missing the outdoors
•dont have the power to get and be about around the house
•having something to eat that isn’t in the kitchen
•having to make up homework when you weren’t even there for the lesson….
BEING SICK SUCKS!

You’re one selfish son of a bitch. Do you know that. Every place I name is “too far” for you. But you manage to stop by fucking Hollywood. Well you know what. Thanks for making me fail my most favorite class. The class that I actually enjoy once in my life. Hope you’re happy when you see me get kicked out or some shit.
Here comes the next 5 hours of silence. I don’t care what you think but you just costed me it. Yeah you didn’t even said yes or no to HB or Big Bear. That is why I woke up “late”.
You don’t know how much I hate you. More than I hate every single person at Buchanan last year. And I hated a lot.
You get an award for worlds most horrible and fucked up mom ever.
“I understand/ I know what you’re talking about.” bullshit you’re not in my photo class aren’t you? No. How the hell do you know.

*Conventional Friend.*
You’ve taken the best of me and thrown it away. I’m a fool for you and I think I’m going to crazy. I can’t control myself, contain my thoughts. It’s eating me up inside. You’re just a phone call away, and everyday you seem further away. I’ll try my best to throw my pride aside. You never did told me what you wanted. I’ve been waiting, I’ve been taking notes all a long. And nothing… Lauren was right… Why am I either bothering to keep on going like this..

I hate it when I have to find things out myself… It’s either tell me straight up… Like right now, you’re posting statuses about weird things I’m worried about. I’m having second thoughts. I’m really pessimistic about these things. It would really help if I know about these things since we’re flirting and shit…
I don’t even know where I stand with you anymore.. You’re STILL sending me mix signals.. And now you’re posting things you normally don’t do.. For example, today started guess someone knows. And failing about something…..
I don’t know if it’s worth going there night…

I don’t need your fucking “side comment” on things that are obvious. You’re just making things even worst. I’m just giving out a point and you don’t need to be so god damn pessimistic about this shit.

When people or family members compliments you on how beautiful and unique you are. But there’s always that one… wait, I mean a lot of little side comments or hints on how much you need to change yourself by the way you look.. Really, dropping someone hints to tell him to lose weight. What kind of fucking person tells a teenager/ young adult to lose fucking weight… That just kills their self-esteem. That’s just plain FUCKED up. For example, family friends or can I say my own fucking great grandmother, it’s not the fucking early 1930’s it’s a new generations, everyone across the fucking universe are different sizes and shape. It’s like telling a fucking 4’7” 20 year old to be taller, or telling a fucking skinny person to eat more. Even thought my parents told me to be respectful to my elders, I’m cussing you out underneath my breath with every single insult you throw at me. Maybe walk out the house and walk down the street to the beach and start screaming my lungs out. I hate people who are judgemental. You are one fucked up human being. One day, karma is going to come bite you in the ASS. This don’t just go towards my great grandmother but every single person who talked shit about me in the pass 6 years of my life. I might not be the most perfect person in the whole world that you would like to look up too. I’m just a normal full-time student who has been teased my whole life.
Sorry that I’m fat, sorry I couldn’t get braces, sorry I might be short. Well my family isnt fucking rich like you or youre family. We have money problems. If youre gonna say shit like that how about you pay for every shit you told me. YOU DON’T HAVE THE FUCKING RIGHTS TO LOWER SOMEONE’S SELF-ESTEEM TO THE FUCKING BOTTOM OF THE OCEAN! Maybe you should go visit the bottom of the ocean and stay there till you can’t breath….
Ok, I needed to get that out of system..
I’ll never die alone. I know people have the same problem.

My name…..
It’s Joanna not Joan or even spelled as Johanna.
It’s JoANNA… Seriously, there’s an “A” at the end and there’s no fucking “H” in it either. And I’ve known you for how many years now? Still can’t get it right.

(Decided to make a second tumblr page of all my rants and/or thoughts that goes through my mind on a daily bases.)

Quick rant:

1. You are a dumbass DUMB-FUCK period
2. You’re pregnant with some guy you just met, who might be or is a drug addict
3. I honestly wonder what the fuck is wrong with your parents
4. Underage like REALLY young for that guy
5. I thought you were better than that
6. The next generation is gonna be FUCKED with all these decisions they’re making

Pet Peeves:

1. People who think they’re the bitches or the smartest person on the whole entire FUCKING world
2. People who controls other people’s future and/or life.
3. Getting mix signals, therefore you don’t know what to do, start to stress-out, get jealous, and become extremely paranoid.
4. People who don’t know when to SHUT THE FUCK UP and let people solve their own problems or butt into someone’s business.